Say Goodbye, Uneasy Nights

I am the kind of people who have troubles trying to sleep. Each time the eyelids shut off, my mind doesn’t auto-activate peace mode. Instead, it will start to process all sorts of things, reality and fantasies alike.

It’s a tiring experience. Trust me, you’ll eventually slept your way to dreamland, but tomorrow’s never gonna be easy. You’ll be waking up with a package of tiredness, eye bags, sore here and there,basically hell.

I’m twisting my brain to find the cure. Reading might induce sleepiness, so I had a go. Sadly, readable things in this house were only newspapers and Mastika. All came to a sad dead end, until a friend bought a book. I doubt he would find any Archer’s or King’s (ah, my poor knowledge).

He bought himself a nice,small book, “Jangan Bersedih” by Dr. ‘Aidh bin ‘Abdullah Al-Qarni. It was the 2nd part of the overall three. 3am, when all beings are well asleep except me, I reached for the book. Setting a cushy back support with a pillow, I leaned,scanning at the cover and start a typical judging-content-by-the-cover.Bad habit, I guess.

Corrupted mind of mine did the judging. Of how boring it will be, reading a religious book. I guess dark spots clotted my heart all over, to be thinking like that. But there’s a tiny bit of inkling that told me to start reading.

The first title grabbed me instantly. “Dont’t be sad, the world is too filthy to be wept for”.Surprisingly, my heart was opened wide, and I read on, consuming bits a piece as I go. The book is filled with advice, few translations of hadith and excerpts from the Holy Quran. I keep on reading, until, I felt moisture all over my eyes.With tears.

Wiping away, afraid of being seen if somebody woke up, I then closed the book, adjusted the pillow and lie down. I thought about there’s no need to be sad, or burdened with mortal matters, when it is unavoidable and I cannot run from it. Then, the advice from Mak kicked in. “Recite 21 times of Bismillah.” I did, for how long I’ve been neglecting that, I lost count.Moments later, I’m well asleep.

Since that day, I’ll be reading this book prior to sleep.No more uneasy nights for me.I am glad that I found this book. Without it, I’ll be lost still, pondering my misfortunes and later on could not sleep. The book is now my best friend, and I’m thinking of buying the other two installments to complete a whole series.

For those who feeling the burnout, be it stressed from work or countless obstacles/misfortunes in life, find this book. There’s no guarantee that it will worked for all just like it did to me, but there’s no telling of how the apple would taste if we don’t give it a bite.

We tend to leave The Creator, Most Powerful, Most Merciful. For all the mishaps and misfortunes are all came as a reminder, of how lucky we are, to be bestowed with all that. It’s a sign of we are still treasured by The One.We are still part of the plan.

I’m no preacher, for my sins are many. But being a sinner doesn’t mean losing the rights to channel good things through. Hate the sins, love the sinner.

Godspeed.

You can find few excerpt from the book here.